Saturday, November 7, 2009

Hearing Loss and no jobs in sight or help

Since I signed up with Voc Rehab, I haven't been able to get the assistance I need. A lot administration crap preventing my assistance....since my original posting about my hearing loss I did all that I was supposed to do, my counselor was being tied up with his boss's "rules" and whatever else that was being held up. Because of that and the fact that I have been struggling without having a job and when I do get lucky enough to get the interview, I have noticed that I barely get through the interview without having some trouble with understanding what was said. That is more than frustrating!!! I am giving up hope. Aside from no jobs being available, I can't spend any money looking for a job when we aren't able to do this. I try very hard on a daily basis of either writing out my thoughts to keep myself from going crazy. I try very hard to put on a smile daily for my husband. Recently he was sick with a cold and fever, that alone scared me to death!! He nearly died a year ago and I don't want anything to happen to him. I am scared to be alone....he took longer than most to get back on his feet. I'm happy that he is ok, but that still doesn't help that I am worried about him.

I have noticed that when I go shopping for groceries that I can't hear some people when they are talking to me, I don't know if it's the noise levels or if it's they aren't speaking loud enough, I have to rely on reading their lips to understand them. When Brian goes with me to get the groceries, he sometimes forgets that if his back is towards me then I have to grab his arm or anything to get his attention and have to have him repeat himself. I know this bothers him a lot and makes him just as frustrating! I am tired....maybe I'll write again later....